I’m lacking some good rest; I’m really tiring from life in general. Every time I open my eyes, I give all I have to give to the day.
Back in the Saddle
My family, along with many other families, will soon jump back into the throes of a new school year again. What this means is, I’ll start setting my alarm at an extremely absurd time in the morning again (I swear it wasn’t that early when I was in school!), cutting the rest back even more, to start the school/work day along with all the events we schedule from those.
The idea of scheduling time for romance with my husband is one we’re all too familiar with. My floors are filled with clutter: toys and little bits of..well, everything you can imagine.
This Is NOT Me
Accomplishing my lists of things to do seamlessly, fits nowhere with my personality either. Not in the way it seems others are easily able to do, anyway. My soul feels as if it’s caving to the pressure much of the time.
To spell this all out plain and simple? I’m just wearing thin!
I’m unsure of how much more is left in me to remain on task, frankly.
It’s possible I’m requiring a break from all the routines in our day, too. But how does a mother or a wife take time off? I mean, these roles should come with (un)paid time away, however this isn’t the case!
One Rest at a Time
Maybe I should take baby steps towards a solution then. Perhaps, I can delay one of my responsibilities on the never-ending tasks I have to complete, and spend some alone time with my husband, which I crave. Only the two of us. He and I could probably gain something from having the opportunity to woo each other once again.
Another certain probability is, as I’m feeling like I’m getting ready to fold, from the daily struggles coming with having a larger family, maybe it’s actually my soul directing me and giving me a sign to refresh itself, which would allow me to build my strength up once again, for completing the remainder of my journey. I’m sure a minimum of one day could be arranged for me to spend some alone time with Jesus, too. Maybe I’ll end up discovering I’m already possessing the equipment I’m requiring, to face the future and all it holds and my soul just requires some silence, for small periods, to remind me of this. I think this can only end positively by trying this theory on, no? I have a funny feeling this can only help.
“Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:29-30 NIV